Between my shadow and my soul

To those everyday Wonders

People I know ask why my blog isn't filled with hilarious stories about my "patients".
Cofidentiality issues aside, the way Hollywood notoriorizes (my word) mental health issues is fare removed from the actual reality, warmth and respect of the time I spend with clients.
If I am laughing in a session it is usually due to a wisecrack made by them, as life's difficulties allows one an above average grip on humour. Here is something these wanderers of my soul have taught me:

Depression, to my nuanced sight,
Appears as my experiences of driving alone
Through a voluminous thunderstorm

My usually firm grip quivers
From the force of this unrelenting
Jaggedly shaking pressure

The roads that I usually whiz through
Singing at the top of my voice, become
Sinister, slippery, arduous with danger

The thunder assaults my ears and the lightning
Reflects the fear in my runny eyes
I am too weak for this, it is too strong

I need a safe rest stop, away, away, with
My doors and windows Locked. To protect
Me from what I cannot control

5 shared ideas:

Zahera October 30, 2008 at 2:07 PM  

Besides the issue of mental illnesses and people who suffer from them not being hilarious to begin with!

Quite the opposite infact and quite saddening how we could even want to get kicks out of other peoples discomfort, emotional and psychological distress.

Id love to know more about what you do Nooj- guess thats obvious from the kind of work ive also done.

Azra October 30, 2008 at 5:39 PM  

Hey Bunny (Don't ask Im calling everyone bunny these days) :P

I've been there, done that. Studied for years...4 theory, 7 practical (long story I'll tell you sometime)

But I know this for certain. Its got to be one of the hardest jobs ever. And for those going through it...the mental anguish is worse than anything that could happen to you physically.

I don't want to go back there...but I find myself in the arena more than I would like to be. But if I can help others, I'll help :)

bb_aisha October 30, 2008 at 9:39 PM  

Kudos for what you do

Nooj October 30, 2008 at 11:22 PM  

zesty- exactly!! hmmm u coming for the blog meet? would love to meet and chat to the floating on bliss , baby carrying, romantic, love sends me cloudwards zahera :)

hey kitty :P wow i gotta hear this story. at the blog meet ;) i've only done 2 years 6 months of prac and it counts up to theory times ten. when i just started i'd visit the shooting range a lot, but i've found some ways of seperating myself. sometimes i don't know if i'm helping at all

aw bb i love ur job too. wanna swop for a day :P seriously tho, i think our ability to help is much more restricted than for example govt officials or social workers. it's frustrating at times but you do what u can

Zahera October 31, 2008 at 1:13 PM  

Floating on bliss huh lol! Well i think Beebs was supposed to pass on my email addy to you- azra also has it so inshaAllah maybe you could email me details and inshaAllah will definitely try to make it! Would be lovely to meet you all :-)