Between my shadow and my soul

Dear Para*Nooj* (I hope)

Saaleha's post made me feel like writing one to myself.

I realized I'm kinda ambitionless.
Which is scary. Anyways. Here goes.

Dear Nooj

This is FREAKY.
Ok, now that that’s out.
I wonder if you’re alive. Three years is a long time. If you are dead I hope our parents are dealing with it OK.I hope u haven’t died before you made an awesome google entry though. Oh also I hope that if you are dead you died in a noble way. Or at least donated your organs.

Ok, operating in the assumption that you have survived.
Where are you? I hope you have hopped a coupla countries by now.
And have saved a few lives or at least made some better.
This whole writing a letter thing about the future is a bit anxiety provoking.
I worry that maybe you haven’t found a way to LIVE all the butterflies in my head.
There’s nothing concrete I want you to have done.
Just made the World a better place and made some amount of Difference.

You’re probably curious about me. Well I’m very idealist and a little confused at how to apply it. I don’t have a Plan, but you probably don’t have one either. It’s the way we are.

This is weird to say to yourself, but even if you have mucked up or married one of ur distant cousins or failed your dissertation or have gotten a job in Accounting, it’s ok. I’ll still love you.

Peace :)

10 shared ideas:

Waseem November 18, 2008 at 9:58 AM  

and everyone else who loves you will still do :)

i should do one of these too and be vague as you are.

Edge Of Where November 18, 2008 at 10:28 AM  

still no goals set out besides the fact that you still want to be alive... lol

Dont worry Nooj all of us that know you will always love you for your crazy sentiments and thoughts

Prixie November 18, 2008 at 11:50 AM  

you know, you say u have no goals, but u do want to travel and make the world a better place, so u in fact do have goals

The Organ Harvester November 18, 2008 at 1:37 PM  

I read something about organs.

I did one of those just to see if I could steal a glimpse of the future. But the best thing to do is record today. Because sometimes we forget that there was past. And the past is significant.

Azra November 18, 2008 at 3:00 PM  

LOL Nooj...

I did one but sent it to myself on email. I don't know if the world could handle another of my personal tirades because I have problems being vague and discreet when it comes to talking about me :D

Heres to seeing how it all transpires :D

Work in Progress November 18, 2008 at 4:27 PM  

Lol Nooj u never fail to crack me up :) U'll still love u if u marry a distant cousin or get a job in accounting? Haha, not so sure about that bit.

Saaleha Bamjee-Mayet November 18, 2008 at 6:14 PM  

Future Saaleha is telling you that you will not get a job in Accounting.
She's not too certain about the bit where you marry a distant cousin.

Anonymous November 18, 2008 at 6:45 PM  

This reminds of the time when the flux capacitor messed up and everyone was transport back to 1885. Or was that a Movie.

Awesome google entry hey? I'd say you're not too far off Nooj. And now I know you're someone who doesn't take compliments easily, but darn it, just take this one.

lol, the word verification thing says "prooda". Who comes up with these things???!

Khadija November 18, 2008 at 7:51 PM  

because you indulge my quoting ways:

"The years teach much which the days never knew." R W Emerson :D

Nooj November 18, 2008 at 8:38 PM  

Was and EOW (that sounds like a political party:P)- thanks for being open to insanity :)

Prix- lol you're right :) but somehow i also feel i need CONCRETE goals i can visualize. Like this guy from primary school, ever since i've known him he knew what job, wife, lifestyle he wanted. He aimed for it his whole life and now he's got all his ducks neatly in a row. I don't even know what species of bird I want lol. But thanks:)

OH- record and APPRECIATE :)what if tomorrow never lives...

Azra- loz your list must be like ten pages long. gimme a peek pleeeease

WIP- your cynicism surpasses my optimism. but u forget i'm Memon:P If i get a job in Accounts our good friend will be my boss and she'll appoint me CEO of her Ferrari's TLC :P

Saals- good u keeping the correspondence up. Can she possibly download my future dissertation from the UP library and mail it to me? There wil be remuneration to subsidise her recent fetish for designer kitchen appliances :)

SG- awwww thanks:) Back to the Future- that was when Marie Biscuits were the bomb. Lol well i do have one entry I'm secretly half-proud of- its something I said about our street kids project last year at the International Muslim Conference on HIV and AIDS

Kay :) like how to not let Mantos spoil our days perhaps...